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Thursday, November 13, 2014

I am a Father (Part 1)

[The post has been backdated to 2014]

2013 was an eventful year in our lives. We were blessed with our little baby girl, lurching us although expectedly, into a wonderful life. There are some moments you just cannot forget (or can forget due to old age). Below are some of them

It must have been April, when i got to know, i will be an dad. First reaction was of measured and controlled happiness, as happy emotions tend to make you reckless, and makes your heart in such an high place, that any small sad news can bring it crashing down 10 stories high. So with a cautious measure of happiness, i asked to confirm twice. And yes it was true. Now this news had to taken as an adult, cause now there is going to be a human being who is going to be dependent on you, reply on you, trust completely on you and be shaped by your actions.Ohh yes and movies are really stupid, as they never show a real situation, like mother and father talking over phone, and mother giving the news that she is pregnant from 1631km away.

Then wife shifted to her hometown and i used to travel 595km every weekend without fail, just to be with her. watching her grow slowly, listening the heartbeats, wanting to sleep on the tummy (i have a huge one and everyone wants to sleep on it, that was my only chance to experience the feeling). The first sonography test showing small hands, heartbeats, and many other things which, keep the memory alive.

Then the delivery date was 3 weeks away and i was planning for the leaves, already had told boss will be gone for 2 weeks. But life is not like a movie, there is no script, just god playing DnD dice. Usually i call up wife during the weekdays, and in the morning i call, and she says contractions are getting shorter, but maybe be a false alarm, but still going to the doctor. Now my mind can be split in 2 parts, one which is really worrried about her, and still my other part takes over and talks me to complete my project. Hence i get engrossed and start completing my project. When i look at the clock it's almost past the time i call her in the afternoon and i pick up the phone, tap the no's. The first answer i get from her dad is, 'You are a Dad'. I said 'Majak na karo, mummy ne aapo'. (Don't joke, give it to mummy). And she gives me the same sweet news. First thought is whether Nidhi is fine, and everyone is fine, so i relax, hangup. And stay stunned for a few min. My neighbor is watching me funnily, asking me what happened, and i am speechless for a few min. The din of the office recedes, and my mind is filled with pure joy. That is something i never let myself experience in fear of becoming very sad. But this news were something that were never going away and can never be surpassed. That moment was bliss. Even in the florescent lighted office, everything was bright, everyone was happy, the world had come to a standstill, because everyone had achieved nirvana. As i was far away, i booked a plane ticket, reached wife's place next morning, took hold of my baby, my small bundle, with wrinkled hands and feet, face as beautiful as mine, eyes as big as her mom's, the perfect solution. I asked about her health and she was little underweight, but healthy. I put her near her mom and just waited and watched.